Lost Insights

Dude, where's my epiphany?

Aren't we supposed to get hit with a smart stick or something on Jan. 1, 2010 and suddenly figure out all our life's challenges?

I'm waiting for my moment of zen enlightenment to come. It's not cooperating.

I think this is kind of like all those years when I wanted to lose weight, yet felt powerless to do something about it.

I yearned for it, yet I wasn't willing to make the changes. Worse, I didn't know I could make them. I didn't see my own possibilities. I felt like my body was a cage. I felt trapped. I didn't link my obesity to what I ate and what I did -- I assumed I was obese because that's just how I was made.

We are always looking for change to come from outside ourselves. Especially me -- it's an old habit of mine.

What comes first -- a change of mind, or a change of habit? If you change your actions, will your mind follow, or does the heart/head have to go first, followed by the body?

I suspect it's a combination of both -- sometimes one, and sometimes the other, depending on your circumstances.

But it's essential that you be the source that drives your transformation. It can't come from the outside.

Here I am again -- waiting for my New Year's epiphany to drop down on me from the sky.

It's not going to get here that way, is it?